After a lot of thought and a long development process, I’ve decided to put a pin in the “Patient” project. It wasn’t really making me happy chipping away at it, and whilst it was a good excuse to learn Moho, I couldn’t really pull it together as a project - something just wasn’t right about it. Maybe there’s a time and a place for a project, and this still isn’t it.
However, sometimes the end of something inadvertently causes the beginning of something else. Thinking about that project, and getting into a funk about it, actually got me thinking about other stuff that makes me unhappy, which led me to the start of a new project.
I’ve always had issues with the shape of my body - body image issues, I suppose. At Pictoplasma a couple of months ago I saw one of Anna Ginsburg’s recent works What is Beauty and it got me thinking about the big push for body positivity in the last couple of years. But it also got me thinking about my own lack of positivity about my body, and wondering where that comes from.
Long story short, I’m embarking on a new project, working title MAN SHAPES. I don’t yet know whether it’s a documentary, a fiction or even a flipping podcast at this stage. What I do know is that I want to try and understand what it is that would make me happy about my body.
That’s carefully worded. What I don’t want is a big conversation about how the media teaches us what beauty is, diet culture is bad etc. What I’m interested in is a much more personal look at male body image - what is it about my experiences that have made me so self conscious about it? Where does that come from for me, and do other people feel that way too?
It’s early days yet, and I’m quite busy at the moment, but I’m excited, genuinely excited about this project.